BFD #7

Ezekiel 38:10 Thus says the Lord God: On that day thoughts will come into your mind, and you will devise an evil scheme.

How true, how true. I think this is pretty much the story of all of our lives. We think, we devise evil schemes, and, depending on our level of brazenness, stupidity, anger, or BAC, we may or may not go through with said evil schemes. Really, if you think of it, we're all pretty ridiculous.

Just the other day I was trying to think up ways to get back at my ex boyfriend including but not limited to: hate texting, stalking, writing a mass message to every girl he knows on facebook about his uh...skill level, marrying a big strong Husker football player who would be more than willing to defeat him in a fight to the death...etc etc etc. But luckily, something came over me somewhere between the plotting and the doing that kept me from carrying out my evil schemes. I'd like to think that that something was the HAND OF GOD (dun dun dun dunnnnnnnn). It was as if He was trying to tell me something (like, "You are outside your mind...stop being stupid"). I get that a lot. What I don't get a lot is a clear explanation for why I'm being sent a particular message. But usually I break down and use my head (*sigh*) and realize that God's reasons are bigger than mine, and I'm sure they make more sense. I was hurt, so I wanted to inflict hurt back upon my aformentioned ex-bf, but I'm starting to realize (through restraint and self-reflection) that hurting someone I used to love probably isn't the best idea. I probably shouldn't have a desire to make him feel the pain that he (perhaps unintentionally) made me feel. That doesn't mean I will cease to feel that desire, but at least my brain knows now that there is more to this game we call life than hurting others.

SO we have options:

1) We can carry out our evil schemes

2) We can daydream about how nice it would be to carry out our evil schemes

OR

3) We can take the first step in what I see as being a rocktastic recovery from anger/pain. Let it go.

Every day, we commit innumerable sins. But we, as children of the God who FORGAVE those sins en masse (sur la croix), He does a miraculous and graceful thing and LETS THEM GO. And by doing so, He allows us to continue on with our lives, doing the work He gave us to do, without fear that our wrongdoings will undo all the good He has done. They can't. God has the final word. So um, you can think about evil schemes...you can even do them (though I would advise against this). WISDOM comes with realizing that the dirty work has already been done, and that no scheme you devise is going to work better than the one God did to undo what He knew you'd do....that was a tongue twister, eh?

Well, kids*, I hope that made sense. Once again, I'm not God, nor do I claim to have some sort of God-given information to which only I am privy. I just flop open the Bible, point my finger to a verse, and say what pops into my head. I don't think I'm crazy, but you can if it makes you feel better. You could fill Memorial Stadium with the people who think I'm crazy (for those of you who are not cool enough to be Husker fans, that'd be around 85,000 people)

Peace out.

*By kids, I don't mean to be condescending...I just use that turn of phrase a lot. I, myself, am a kid.